Trying to get back into the swing of things is a lot harder to do than to say you are doing. I have had some personal changes in my life happen recently.
I married the love of my life on January 3rd. This included the integration and blending of our families. He has 4 children and I have 3 (only 1 at home). The house is rambunctious, fun, crazy, and it feels like home. It’s hard to explain but after being single since 2005 and not dating anyone because I wanted to concentrate on my children, I was taken by surprise when Scot entered my life.
The unfortunte incident is that I lost my oldest daughter during this transition. Not lost in the sense of death, but lost in the sense that I had to ask her to move out because she was disrupting life. I gave her 30 days to move and had to stick to it. I wouldn’t have, but she was posting nasty things about me on her tumblr page and it was just too hurtful to live with someone who didn’t appreiate the things that I was doing for her and her fiance’, and my grandson. What is more hurtful is that she is now using him against me. She is not letting me see him although I was there from the moment she found out she was pregnant through delivery and 6 months into his life. I can’t even think about it – it cuts too deep.
Other than that, I am back to writing again. Scot pushes me everyday. I now have a tablet with a bluetooth keyboard to help me during times at work there is a lull and my brain begins to fire off. I’m excited about my future and what is to come. I am happy that I have a family that loves me. I love them dearly. I love all of my children.
I have to just keep pushing along knowing that my Heavenly Father will guide and direct me and i have the love of my family to guide me.